miércoles, octubre 20, 2004

My Poems ^_^

The 7 entries before this are of poems that I made.. Suddenly they came up in my head. I dunno I wasn't feeling well, emotionally. Now I'm stressed out. I have my feelings to sort out and my brain to fill in info for mid exams...huuuhhh... What kind of life is this?

You (5/11/2003)

Beautifully growing
The feelings deep inside,
They cannot be erased.
The more I try to...
The more it grows.
Strongly, the roots of those feelings grow
To erase it in a wink of an eye...
It’s impossible.
The roots clamp down deeply...

Time..maybe the answer...
Just maybe...
Time can erase these feelings
‘til they whither away...
Or can it not?

Beautifully carved
The memories of a distant time
They cannot be erased
The more I try to
The deeper it is carved
Leaving wounds and feel of joy
To erase this in a flash of lightning
It’s impossible
The carvings stay there deep inside

Is time the answer?
Can time erase the carvings of my memories?
Can time erase the roots of my feelings?
Can my memories whither away?
Can my feelings go away?
If it is the answer, it might take long...
For these feelings are for you...
And these memories...about you...

Dream (9/6/2004)

When I realized it all
It was all just a dream
A dream so surreal
As real as time goes
The sagacity in me
Has vanished away
Erased by the dream
The dream of a fantasy land

Longing (16/10/2004)

A longing for someone beside me
A hollow space inside me
I wanna know what love is

I have love already
For my family and friends
Nevertheless, this other love...
What is it like?

Sometimes I feel empty
I feel I am of not any use

I search near and far for this love
The search that has taken me to places
Places I have never imagined
Releasing my imagination...
of a fantasy land...so far away...

Your Heart (17/10/2004)

Dreaming of you
Vexes my heart
Confuses my mind
I don't know where to go
This feeling leads my feet
My instincts make me step
To a land where I belong
A land called Your Heart

Seasons Ago (17/10/2004)

A longing so deep
As time passes by
As I stare through the falling rain
My memories go back in time
Laying there on the blanket of snow
Smiling at the warm sun
Feeling the cold, winter breeze upon my face

Then the pictures of my memories fade
To a fresh spring breeze
Flowers blooming
Butterflies starting to awake

My memories fade again
To a hot summer day
Laying on the green grass
The warm summer breeze upon me

My memories fade to a new season
The chilly breeze saying autumn has come
Rolling in the pile of leaves
Red..yellow..orange..falling down delicately...

Imagination (18/10/2004)

Pitter-patter of the rain
Makes my imagination run wild
To the day where I'll graduate
My parents proud beside me

When I'll have my first job
Where I'll fit in
When I find my love
And have my wedding day

When I show the world who I am
To help my country's welfare
When I'll have my own beautiful pearls
Raising them 'til they're ready for the world

When I continue my work
For a better day in my homeland
Where I'll sit at home
Looking back at my memories
Wishing I can turn back time
But I can only wait
Only wait 'til that time comes

Broken (2/10/2004)

If only I can turn back time
When I can hold your hand again
I'll whisper don't go
and leave me here with this pain

Love was sweet long ago
Sweet as milk chocolate
Now I taste bitterness
The bitterness of dark chocolate

You've chained me with your love
Then you leave me alone
I pray to The One Above
But you're still gone

I am in confusion
All because of your love
Your love that has whithered
Leaving aching footprints in my heart

Why did you leave?
What can they offer that I cannot?
Life is unfair
Maybe this is my destiny
Yet..Why does destiny not give me the good, but the bad?

-In dedication to two of my friends (two different people where these 2 do not have any connection at all, they're both guys) who had a broken heart. I hope that you two are feeling better :)-

jueves, octubre 14, 2004

Maafkanlah aqu...

Sebelum cahaya Illahi dipadamkan,
Sebelum langit runtuh,
Sebelum pintu taubat tertutup,
Sebelum malaikat menjemput,
Sebelum Ramadhan menjelang,
Mohon maaf lahir & bathin...
Semoga qta semua dapat melewati bulan
Ramadhan dengan hati yang suci.
Amiinn...
Please forgive me... Perdoname...

martes, octubre 12, 2004

Nindya on TV~

Wuaaaahhh... I saw Kappa alias Nindya on TV today jumping up and down!!! As everyone knows...she won 2nd place in the NOKIA-Marketing Mag Award 2004! And it was recorded by Metro TV...the recording was played 2day (Tuesday, October 12, 2004) at 9PM on Metro TV (no duuhh:p)! And u know what?! Nindya was dressing formal and had some make-up on! Wahahaha...

viernes, octubre 08, 2004

Adam György

aku jatuh cinta...
[taken from DEWA: Bintang Lima Album]

unforgettable...that's what you are..
unforgettable..though near or far...
["Unforgettable" by Nat King Cole & Natalie Cole]

Ahahaha...when can I meet you again Mr. Adam György?
*drifting off in a dreamland* Oh mee oh my... I said once
that I would "fall in love" with a guy that could either play
classic piano or classic guitar very well... Especially if the
song on the guitar is "Romance D'Amour", I can play only
the first half of it >_< And any beautiful classical song to
my ear on the piano...

Last night I went to a classical music concert which had a
performance from Nusantara Symphony Orchestra and
also a Hungarian World-Known Pianist
named Adam György. It was a tribute concert to Franz Liszt
one of the greatest composers of all time! The songs that Liszt
composed were all beautiful, and some parts a bit slow, but
I don't mind cuz I like classical music :)

The concert was in Balai Sarbini Concert Hall, started at
8 PM on Thursday, October 7th, 2004. I got 2 tickets free
from Dad, who got it from his office free. Both tickets were
VIP II tickets at Rp.500.000,- each. So it's a mill for both.
My dad couldn't go with me cuz he had a business trip to
Aceh! (Daerah conflict >,<) Then my mom didn't feel like it
cuz she didn't wanna go through the traffic, even though we
use a chauffeur. So I asked Dhita to accompany me, and she
was more than happy to come with me (",)

After class at 3PM I went home, sent the Interview Essay
homework to the lecturer, then took a bath. At about 6PM
I ate dinner by myself, cuz my mom had to pick my li'l bro
up at school (SMP Al-Izhar Pondok Labu). My li'l bro's
gonna have a "Kompetisi Elektro" against other middle
schools, so he's been focusing on that in the past weeks.
Then I went to pick Dhita up at her house, I arrived there
at about 6:40PM. When she got on the car, she suddenly
said, "Mut, I'm so excited, cuz it's been a long time I haven't
seen this kind of concert before!"

Then we got to Balai Sarbini, and I met Miranda Gultom who
was, not surprisingly, the Chairwoman of the event. She told us
to go straight to our seats, when actually we just arrived
there and wanted to have a coffee and snack first...huh udah
diusir ajah..salah sendiri sih nyampe jam 8 kurang^_^hehe
So we went to our seats, and we saw a cute usher too on the
way*wink wink*hehehe.. We saw a lot of "bule" watching, I
dunno if they were Americans or Europeans. And we also saw
lotsa other famous people like: Irma Hutabarat (who was the
MC of the nite, but actually I was thinkin' that it'd be better
if I had substituted her..my English is better..hehe), Siswono
Y.H. (one of the people who ran for Vice Prez in the 1st round
of the Presidential election) and Pia Alisyahbana (from the
Femina Magazine group).

At about 8:15PM the concert started with an opening by the
MC. Then Mr. Adam György started his solo act on the piano
by playing 4 songs:
1. "Rigoletto Paraphrase" - Franz Liszt
2. "Hungarian Rhapsody #6" - Franz Liszt
3. "La Campanella" - Franz Liszt
4. "Hungarian Rhapsody #2" - Franz Liszt

There was an intermission after that, a break for the audience
and also performer. After the ending of each song I clapped
with all my heart and I was just amazed by Adam György's
piano playing! As he played through out the song I just stared
in awe at his hands which were flowing up and down the piano
keys so elegantly. He did cross-overs elegantly, and between
phrases did elegant lifts... Oh my, I wish I had those delicate
hands so I can play like him, or maybe I can just have the
pianist to myself? Hahaha...

After the intermission, the Nusantara Symphony Orchestra
played a song from Bela Bartok "Roumanian Dances". Then
performed "Totentanz" by Franz Liszt with Adam György
on the piano. After that was all done, they received a standing
ovation from the audience, and it went on for long.. sooo
long that they came back to the stage and Adam sat again
on the piano bench. Then he played..."Indonesia Pusaka" so
soft and delicately...on the first 5 notes of the song, the whole
audience clapped for him cuz he played an Indonesian song!
I was touched cuz he played an Indonesian national song and
played it very very soft and delicately... After that he went off
stage and the orchestra played 1 song. When the orchestra
was playing, I was also touched cuz it made some pieces of my
past memories fly by me. The time when I was still playing
the violin in the Cranbrook Elementary School Orchestra; the
Columbus Elementary Schools' Orchestra at St. John's Arena,
Ohio State University, Columbus. Ohio, uSA (this event
included about 4 representatives from each Elementary school
in Columbus, Ohio and I was one of 'em from my school); and
the Ridgeview Middle School Orchestra. In the concert at
St. John's Arena, the conductor was Mrs. Lundeen who became
my teacher when I entered Ridgeview Middle School.

Ohmigod... when the concert was over, there was a giving
of some bouquet of flowers to Adam, the conductor
(Edward C. Van Ness), and the Ambassador of Hungary for
Indonesia (Dr. GyorgyBusztin). There was also a little interview
by the MC with Adam, and Mrs. Irma Hutabarat asked how
old he was; and he answered...twenty-two... I looked at Dhita,
and I was like, "Dhita! He's only 22! We have a chance!" and
Dhita was like, "Ohmigod Mut, he's only 22!" Well the point of
that conversation was.. Dhita and I "wanted" Adam...!
hahahahaha... :D It's true..at least for me it is... Terpesona gw
ama yang namanya Adam György! huahahaha
And he's a World-Known Pianist too...!

Well enough of Adam..I wanna do some nostagila eits salah
nostalgia I mean...

I remembered when I was in Ridgeview, since I was a junior
I started at the 2nd Violin part for the 1st year (6th grade),
then advanced to the 1st Violin part in 7th grade and 8th grade.
But then in the position of the orchestra, as a 2nd Violinist we
aren't on the most outer part of the half-circle orchestra layout.
It was 1st Violin then 2nd Violin. When I became one of the 1st
Violinists in 7th grade, I still had my senior, Rebecca, who was
on the right side of me. So when my dad brought the video
camera, he said that he wasn't able to see me clearly because
from the audience point of view, they'd see Becca first then me.
At last in my last year in Ridgeview, I was placed in the outer-
most part of the 1st Violin section... hehehe... bangga lagi
*hits myself* I'm tellin' this story not because I'm so proud of
myself and try to boast it around, but I'm just re-living my
memories...haaah...