BeTe BeTe BeTe

It’s the 1st day of the year, & I’m already starting it out on the wrong foot. It’s not like I had a very bad New Year’s Eve; neither was this day really bad. But it just wasn’t too good from beginning thru out the end. I mean we had a BBQ party @ Adie’s place for the Eve. There were about 13 people there. We also made that nite Charity Nite 4 our brothers & sisters in Aceh. I went to Adie’s house @ 9PM. The stupid thing was, I promised I would get home before “the next year”, which would be 11:30PM or so. But u know, a New Year’s Eve party will last ‘til the new year! (no duuhh..)

The 1st thing that annoyed me was an SMS from Mom saying that my cousins, aunts & uncles were looking for me @ about 10-sumthin’-PM. Then another SMS saying ‘bout the same thing from Dad @ ‘bout 11PM, plus telling me to go home. I was just starting to enjoy the atmosphere, why should I go home before 12?! The 2nd annoying thing is I met sum1 that I was not fond of meeting. It was a bit annoying cuz this person tried to be “akrab” with me, when actually we’ve lost contact for lotsa months ^_^; The 3rd annoying thing, I came home meeting my relatives who were sleeping over for Nu Year’s eating durian! Since I like durian, I ate 3 pieces (not 3 whole durians, ok? D’ya think I’m nuts to eat even 1 whole durian?!) When I was about to sleep my stomach ached. My eyes felt very sleepy & so I closed my eyes, but I couldn’t really sleep cuz of the stomachache. I finally slept @ 2:30AM & woke up @ 7:30AM on Jan. 1st, 2005 (n_n) The 4th annoying thing was, I was late for lunch on Jan. 1st, 2005 so I got a stomachache. The 5th annoying thing was I felt really cold while strolling thru the mall in Plaza Senayan. The 6th was I was also late for dinner & I had a stomachache again.. And I dunno why, sumhow I feel lotsa negative feelings right now. Like feelings of bored ness of my routines, feelings of revenge, sadness, rage, & angriness, but basically just annoyed by everything around me.

Anyway, I’m trying a nu diet. Usually I don’t have a goal in doing a diet, that’s why even though my last diet was successful, after the program was done I gained weight again.. So I’m makin’ myself a goal: By 6 months (so ‘bout June 2005) I should be able to fit in my li’l bro’s jeans. And to get my goal, I need a trigger... My trigger: To get revenge on sum1, to show that I am too good to be true. I mean you shouldn’t let people step on your pride you know.. I’ve been planning my revenge, for less than an hour while strolling thru the Metro Dept. Store in Plaza Senayan (PS) ^_^; (I went to PS for lunch with Mom, Dad, Ikhsan, Tante Atih, Om Kamil, Indah, Tante Ina, Merin, & Narisha)