My Revenge

My revenge... I’ve been thinking am I a bad person to be thinking of a revenge on someone? But then if you were hurt before, when your pride & feelings were stepped on, it’s normal to take on revenge, right? To make myself more happy, I’m gonna “beautify” myself? (is there such a word? Beautify?) What I mean is, I’m gonna lose weight, get rid of my acne prob’s and have healthy hair & skin. Since I’m 174cm tall (‘bout 5’6”), if I lose weight I might look like a model... *ngayal... dreaming...* I mean I am medically overweight, so other than my concern for my outside looks, I’m also concerned ‘bout my health. Coz if I’m overweight, lotsa weird diseases will creep into me, like heart problems, diabetes and stroke.

Well I’m babbling now... I’m not gonna tell who I’m taking this “revenge” on, coz maybe one or two of you reading this know the person. I just want this person to feel so very sorry for stepping on me like that. I mean, overweight people have feelings too you know. Please don’t judge a book by its cover!

I remember the time when I was in Ridgeview Middle School (RMS) where the popular kids didn’t wanna be near me, only 3 of them were truly nice to me... To tell you the truth, they still have discrimination in school in the US... And they say that we have the freedom to do stuff & it’s OK to be different. That’s all bull... I mean there’re lotsa kids who’re stressed out in schools cuz of the mental pressure they got. Goos thing I’m OK now, but I still wanna get revenge on this 1 person who is not from RMS. You could say I’m trying to make myself look like a model so people who make fun of me and step on me will take back their words and get down on their knees begging for their apology to be accepted. HUAHAHAHA... maybe some of you might think... “This is not the usual Mutia” or “This isn’t the Mutia that I know” Well it means you don’t know me and plus I’m already at the edge of my patience & my feelings are bursting out. But I’m not crazy to make sure! I have, at the moment, no one to talk to so I can ease myself & my feelings. That’s why I write it here.